Tuesday, August 18, 2009

A confession

I seem to be finding myself in a rut. I'm having an issue finding my motivation and sticking to it. Mentally, I know I need to work out in order to be healthy, but it feels like extreme torture at times. I have a hard time pushing myself to workout on my own. I tried working out with my family, but that didn't pan out because they weren't interested or found fault with the way I was walking/running.
I need to make up my mind and get with the program. I'm either going to commit myself to becoming healthier, or I'm going to settle for being un-fit and unhealthy.
Only I can make that decision, nobody else.

Unfortunately, I do have a tendency to lose my focus. I'll have focus as long as I see a goal in sight, but if I don't have an actual goal that I know I can work for, I seem to allow myself to slack off. My training is virtually non-existent. That is something that I know I need to work on.

So what I'm working on is getting more motivation. I need to find what works for me and use it to my advantage. What I think I need to do is to sit down with someone and give them my goals. Then I need to get serious and do something. It doesn't have to be much, as long as it's some form of activity that is related to what I want/need to do to get myself fitter.


Wayne Boozer said...

I feel you on this.

I have been there before. Maybe not to the degree that you are, but I know this feeling.

To answer one of your questions, yes, it helps to have goals. Have long term, mid term and short term goals. What I do, for example, is keep a weekly goal book. On Monday, I establish what I want to get done that week, and categorize it by KARATE, WORK, PHYSICAL TRAINING, and PERSONAL. As I do things, I check them off. At the end of the week I review it. In that same book I keep my long term goals so that I can always flip back to them so I never lose sight.

See, I lose focus too.....it happens to more folks than you think. That's why the folks that don't seem so extraordinary to the rest of us.

More importantly, you have to keep your goals realistic. If you don't you'll disappoint yourself and you'll give it up quickly. Everything is a step towards the next level. You have to remember that. At my respective age, a 720 degree kick is no longer a realistic goal (or a viable self-defense move, for that matter). Maintaining the vertical leap I do have though, is a realistic goal.

Perhaps we can talk more in depth about your goals via e-mail and work on taking smaller steps to getting to where you want to be. ;-)

Your friend,

Sa Bom Nim Wayne Boozer

Anonymous said...


I've only just discovered your blog, you sound like an amazing lady and I don't know how you manage too, being a mother, I don't think I could if I had children - that's fantastic !

I struggle too at times, I have been learning tkd just over a year and recently tried to improve overall fitness - sticking at the running is really hard. However varying my runs if you have that option helps and if I seem to be on a run which is harder and I do less, I always try and either finish faster or add one tiny extra bit of distance - even if its just a few lamp posts or something like that, just to make me feel better.

I'm also trying to combine with a mix of less intense activity so that at least I do something - even if its just a series of things like press-ups, crunches.

If I have a bad week and do nothing - I used to get quite annoyed with myself and try and push myself harder but then I started getting injured so if I do have a week or a few days in a row when I can't, I just try and pick up again when I can. Or just do more forms practice.

Setting goals sounds like a better idea though for longer term fitness. I wish you all the best with it. I really have to sort out my diet - I've realised that its all very well being disciplined with running but if I'm not backing that up with eating more healthily then it doesn't work.